Had to go to the soon to be ex husband’s today, got to visit with the kitties & dog, which was nice & also heart wrenching.

But then when I left he was crying & this is exactly what I texted him afterwards & exactly how I feel:

“Idk what to say, tbh I don’t totally get why you’re upset that I’m finally leaving. You made it clear in every way you possibly could for years, & very very explicitly since 6-9 months ago that that’s what you want.

You don’t have to explain if you don’t want to, ofc. I just truly don’t understand. You literally drove me out of that house? So…idk, you don’t have to pretend to be sad on my account if that’s what you’re doing.”

I mean, for 8 1/2 years, he hasn’t wanted to spend literally any time with me, he isn’t interested in anything but work & then getting high enough to pass out after work. I was a ghost in that house. It’s truly as if I’m not a real person to him.

And given his history – are the tears even real? The entire time I was there felt off as hell so who knows. I do know that’s he’s wanted nothing to do with me for 8 1/2 years, so I honestly don’t understand why he’s upset now. Do people get that sad when their free housekeeper, landscaper, fence builder, painter, decorator, cat feeder, etc leaves them?